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✖ PLAYER:
Name & DW Journal: laura easycompany
Plurk: geekyshoelaces
Info links: wiki
Canon Point: end of 5x8
Gender & Sex: Female
Age: 18
Birthdate/Sign: Libra. Her birthday is October 10th-ish.
Tattoo: On her hip, the size of a silver dollar.
Suitability: She is 18.
Power:

As a vampire, Caroline gets the usual perks of living forever and never aging, she heals faster too. She's got superhuman strength, speed, and heightened senses. She's got the ability to control someone, remember certain things or forget them entirely (aka compelling). Because Caroline is a new vampire and drinks animal blood, her ability to compel (as well as her physical strength) is less effective than older, stronger vampires.

The only way to kill in the TVD-verse vampire is sunlight, a werewolf bite, fire, or a stake through the heart. Anything involving wood or the herb vervain is extremely painful and debilitating for a vampire. Caroline has a ring made by her best friend Bonnie, who is a witch, that allows her to go out in sunlight, but very few vampires have this thus helping her hide the fact that she is a vampire.

To lessen her powers, I'd say it's up to you guys what can be allowed. Her superhuman abilities would probably be nerfed a bit and maybe it takes longer than normal for her to heal?

Personality:

"Look, about Caroline, no matter what her flaws are, when push comes to shove, you're going to want that girl on your side."
-Stefan Salvatore

Like every teenage girl, Caroline comes with her issues; she can be petty, immature, insecure, and jealous. She gets wrapped up in things that don't really matter to most when there are 'bigger things' happening. Outwardly, she seems sweet, peppy, in control but of course, some of that, later on, appears to only be skin deep. Caroline has a bit of a competitive streak too, especially where Elena is concerned. It feels like, to her, that she tried so hard, and yet, Elena doesn't have to try at all and she gets everything while making it seem so effortless. She can be gossip sometimes and has an uncanny ability to find out information from any source and fast. Her 'Little Miss Innocent' act comes in handy because she's good at providing a distraction on demand despite being a terrible liar. She doesn't like being told she can't do something, if anyone doubts her, she strives to prove them wrong and she does it with a sweet sort of gusto, she said it herself perfectly, "Whenever anyone tells me I can't do something, I prove them wrong."

She knows how shallow she can be and she understands that this and her tendency to be a bitchy and controlling are two very serious flaws. She very much wants to change and work on her flaws; she wants to be "abyss deep" and her "kiddie pool" level frustrates her. She's also admitted that at times, "I'm a terrible, awful person-but I'm working on it". She starts taking baby steps towards the grand understanding that it's not all about her.

But over all, Caroline is a fierce and loyal friend. Despite the bitchiness and the shallowness, she can be just as kind and caring and sweet. She's protective of her friends and is willing to take on whatever comes that keeps them safe. She saved Matt from dying, therefore exposing her secret and herself as a vampire because she loved him and couldn't stand by and watch him die. But she also puts a lot of stock in other people's loyalty, she expects it in return. When Tyler didn't help her and the rest of the vampire gang against the werewolves, after she helped him (which is risky considering a werewolf bite is deadly to a vampire) and kept his secret, Caroline told him they were done as friends, that their friendship was over.

"You prefer who you are now to the girl you once were. You like being strong, ageless, fearless."
-Klaus

After Caroline is turned into vampire, her personality and neurotic quirks seem to go haywire, which is standard vampire fare. To quote her from the show, "[N]ow I'm an insecure, neurotic control freak... on crack?" It's that control freak and her ability to stay true to her humanity that gives her unparalleled control as a vampire, that keeps her from giving into the urges, the need for blood. Caroline always tries to remain positive and strong despite the horrible things that happen to her (like being turned into a vampire, being rejected by people she loves for being a vampire, being kidnapped and tortured more than once.). She's quite confident in her vampire-ness and who she is now that she is a vampire. Even when her father tortures her for being a vampire, trying to torture the blood lust from her, she accepts that she cannot change, that she can't be changed but that she has a good grip on her need for blood.

Regardless, she struggles with the fact that she felt good killing the only and only person she killed, when she first turned, which is part of her motivation to try to stay normal, to do normal teenage girl things. She worries about making the most of her senior year, she wants to do all the ceremonial, traditional things, she wants to make her life as normal as she possibly can. She sees it as a distraction for herself and her friends, so she hyper focuses on dances and town events, wanting them to be perfect, to go perfectly (but we all know people mostly die at dances in Mystic Falls). Although at times, she seems to be a tad more mellow, it's become easier for her to take more things in stride, sometimes.

✖ SAMPLES:
"Ophiuchus" First-Person Network Entry:

[ Okay, so being kidnapped to some dark and dank isn't new but not being restrained definitely is. And this is coming from a girl who's two stamps away from a free kidnapping. Oh wait, they're all free and a pain in the ass. Caroline may like history a little but she definitely doesn't think this little field trip or whatever is something she wants to be on. As much as the way the whole atmosphere creeps her out, at least she's not being tortured or under the threat of vampire sacrifice.

She finds the note easily enough, reads it, and rereads it, after searching for her phone. Then its a bit of a game of following the crowd. Caroline used to be the sheep kind of girl but not anymore and being herded with a bunch of strangers doesn't exactly thrill her.

After getting the low down and her device, kind of, she's still pissy. As much as home is a mess, she needs to be there. And all of this sounds like a crazy person's dream or something. And yet she can't seem to blame Klaus for this one, it's beyond him, and his creeper crush on her probably means he wouldn't do this.]

Okay, seriously? This whole kidnapping thing is getting tired. Whoever actually kidnapped me, you might as well let me go. And as for my creepy love letter or whatever this? For my 'very strong beliefs', I have been chosen? Seriously? What very strong beliefs are you talking about? Hello? Does anyone care to explain?

"Cebalrai (logs)" Third-Person Prose Entry: Here's one and two. But also:

Like a lot of people, Caroline tried to imagine what death was like. You know dying of old age, walking towards the light, feeling that compulsion to stay but giving in and letting go. Was there even a light? Did you go to a place with endless shoe sales and puppies? Or was it just darkness, nothing? Okay, so she didn't think about that much. She dreamed about other things too, wondered about what he life would be like once she got out of high school, graduated. Maybe she'd marry Matt and he'd get a football scholarship and they could go to college together. They'd have babies, lots of them. Or maybe not. Either way the future used to be filled with endless possibilities. Now it was just plain endless. She wouldn't get any answers, thanks to the whole being dead thing. Which, she liked to point out whenever possible, was definitely not her fault or what she wanted. Stupid Katherine. Katherine had shattered her typical teenage sense of immortality and replaced with the real deal.

But the thing that kept her grounded was, well, it was a person really. It was Matt. And now he wanted nothing to do with her. If Caroline had figured out anything in her short life, it was that nothing happened the way you planned it to. And that wasn't the way she saw herself telling Matt what she was, what she is. Sure, she expected him to freak out, to be scared, to ask questions, maybe to shout. Actually, his initial reaction was pretty much how she feared it would go but it was realistic right? She couldn't expect him just sit there and say 'Oh, okay, so you're a vampire. That's okay, that's hot, let's make out.' Although, that would've been just fine with her if it had gone that way. But it didn't.

This is too much. All of this is just too much. I don't want to know this…. You can make me forget. You've done it to me before…. Please make me forget, Caroline. I don't wanna look at you and see what I'm seeing right now.

Caroline thought she knew what heartbreak was but, really, until that moment, she had no idea. I don't wanna look at you and see what I'm seeing right now. Those words hurt the most, he saw her for what she really was, the thing she didn't want to see herself as. A monster. She was a monster. And no wooden bullet, vervain dipped dart could hurt worse than that realization. There was no humor in this, there was no cute joke to be made, no convincing him otherwise. Caroline wasn't going to get her vampy-Elena-Stefan-esque happy ending. Matt didn't want to love her for who she was. He didn't want to give it time, he wanted to be rid of the burden she laid upon him. And she couldn't blame him. As selfish as she was, she couldn't deny him his request, she couldn't say no as much as it hurt to do it.

So she made him forget. Forget the truth about who she was, who she'd be forever.